This morning we are talking about Apy and wondering why he has not returned. He must be about 6 months old now. When I feel sad about letting Apy go in my mind, I console myself that we did the best for Apy. I hope he is safe and happy and that he must have decided to let go of us, and fulfil his karma, his desires.
It is impossible to keep a cat at home and training it not to jump on to your bed or sofa. A kitten has its own mind. It gets restless and irritated if confined in a space or told what to do. Just like a human.
It was hard to let go of bratty, after he was carried away by a dog. Bratty was the cutest kitten there ever was. As I write this, my eyes tear up, remembering bratty, how lovely it would have been if he was still around, and playing with apy.
The grey one is bratty, Appy is all black....
Letting go of sorrow, memories, images of loved ones is a hard spiritual practice. I still find it hard to look at Amma's photo, though it is over two years now.
Maybe, instead of SEO Services, I should look for other entrepreneurship ideas, like spiritual healing (become a holistic healer, like the new age gurus, wearing Gucci and drving Mercedes :) ). Or even start a shelter for cats. We were always worried where we could leave the kittens when we went for a holiday. There are kennels where you can leave your pet dog, but hardly any kitten kennels in India.
